Monday, May 26, 2008

Confessions of a former Chain Smoker.

So I have been a non-smoker for like 3 1/2 weeks. I just spent time with 2 friends that I don't see very often last night, both these people were less then pleased with my smoking. I guess my sparkling personality is what kept them coming back for more for so long. Anyways I guess I just wanted to comment on something that I didn't think that I would feel when I quit smoking. I knew I would crave it and eventually get grossed out from the smell, probably get a few headaches from the withdrawls, but there is one thing I didn't anticipate. I am missing a huge part of my personality. I don't know if it is a good part. Or maybe it is that I have a very underdeveloped portion of my personality. One of my friends commented on how different I acted as a non-smoker. I think the cigarette was a safety blanket. Smoking used to be something that broke the ice to talk to someone new, got me out of a situation by letting me "step outside" to smoke, it even gave me something to do with my hands when I didn't know where to put them. But now I am sort of forced to just be me, no fillers, no excuses or escapes. I feel more clean, clear, and responsive. It is awesome.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Ketch - Up!

So I'm back! Its only been, oh a couple months. The last time I posted I was buying a car and moving. The car is still fine. Not as cool when you start having to pay for it. I moved. My sister and I have had our first fights. Yes, that was plural. But all in all I think it is going to be okay. I don't really want to go into it all. What's more important right now is what is on my mind. I have been thinking so much lately about consequences and responsibility. I used to think very little about the repercussions of my actions. Smoking, shopping, partying, etc. As I get a little bit older I am starting to realize that I can't keep acting like I don't have to worry about the future. Basically, I wish I would have listened to my parents more. So kids, listen to your parents, they are right about somethings. But they are not right about the whole eat your whole plate because there are starving kids in China. There are starving kids in China, but you are not going to help feed them by eating all of your food, you are just going to develop bad eating habits and get fat, so just eat until you are full. Good night.

Oh, I should probably tell you why I named my blog that. Maybe next time.